If I Only had a Heart

i work on statistics i can use.
i understand, really i do.
its just the function of your love,
is it greater than or equal to mine?
suddenly i'm out of time, out of it, out of my mind
as i try to quantify what your love means to me.
i guess when it all boils down
my heart gave up - went underground
some things are better left in stone.
you see without him i'm alone.
yea he'll always be my home.

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and i'm alone i'm a ghost
with pleading eyes and wind swept hair
and i'm drowning because
im stuck in the shadows of this nightmare
and the sun won't come out
and i can't turn around
and you can't help me now

i don't pick up the phone anymore.
fall makes me feel alone, anymore.
im so damn sad and it has nothing to do with you.
and i've breathed two packs of cigarettes
and still
my heads such a fucking mess
i calm myself with all the lies i've loved
and sometimes i forget to breathe
they wonder is she a woman or is she machine?
it must be oil pouring from her eyes.
girls like that don't cry.

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and your body sticks to me like glue
but your eyes are bound to tell the truth
they say please dont let me go,
please let me go, don't go, wait, hold me.
and you're drunk again you said her name,
but you told me you loved me so its all the same
i don't care who i am as long as i am yours
and you actually thought i could break your heart?
you cracked my ribs - let the breaking start
my eyes beggining you
to start telling the truth

(refrain)

and then i met another man
he said he cared and he took my hand
the summer told me he would never leave
and we drank tequilla every night
we'd go to bed
didn't fight
i'd rented him a portion of my soul
but the rest of me belonged to you
and you never realized but i swear its true
a part of my heart beats inside your chest
see it likes being with you best.

(refrain)

"he's such a liar" i tell myself
and i picture you trapped in the hell
where people go when they decieve themselves
and i imagine that your tombstone reads
killer bees and leprosy,
couldnt fuck your head up half as hard as me
and i breathe it in and miss you more
wasted again and a laid out on the floor
the thought of your smile is eating me alive.
and in my head i'm calling you
but i just can't seem to get through
somewhere i know i'm better off alone.
but i can't help missing home.

(refrain)