Four years and three heartsrings later our heroine finally collapses (having eaten every line she might have sang to you)

Let me tell you a story
Suspended in lonely at 20,000 feet.
Day before thanksgiving, the day before my birthday.
19 years this week.
Black hair, blue eyes, a smile to die for -
I could have easily.
But we cast our fates
Along different slates
Erasing chalk lines behind us.
Sneaking off in the distance
Spending stolen kisses
Not quite sure how we got there
Drawing new lines in marker

I climbed aboard
Your sinking ship with eager lips
Still the band played on.
Every mistake starts with Texas
Texas fights with California
The girl is stumbling blindly
searching cities for her heart.
You keep insisting -
Saying how you'll miss me.
Shields and tears are falling.
Cause I'm not much of an enemy
And I fucking hate goodbyes.

So good morning hangover
I spin in the shower
You're still sleeping peacefully
as I gather my things.
I kiss you sharply
You feel so empty
A familiar melody
I'd gladly die in your arms to be
reborn in your heart.

I bite my cigarette
And kill my conscience
Why is it every time I try to dream
I just end up with the sting of glitter in my eyes?
You found a place inside my head
I shared cloves and a smile
And you your bed.
Champagne nights and sober regrets.
I left my heart in San Francisco
It goes the way the wind blows
Chilled til balled fists and sweet kisses
Somehow all taste the same.

So Merry Christmas,
It's years later for all of us
And in spite of it,
Some things never change.
You're drowning your sorrows
And kicking in windows,
You think you're a cowboy.
I think you're a ghost.

I trace your hipbones
Because my tongue knows
How the song goes-
Exactly what to do
Each time it fails to speak.
I FUCKING LOVE YOU -
I'll die without you!!
I'll make this up to you
if only in tongue flicks and silence
witty banter - warm kisses
quiet love and near misses
Keeping all I should have told him,
Locked behind bedroom eyes.