Maybe, Killer (maybe not)

There was a time you were my only
When you acted like you owned me
Had a love affair in double time
Our brains were covered up with cheap wine
Chain smoked cigarettes and made a pact
That our love would last a life time

It’s just one more failed signal
Another disaster of a late bill
That we didn’t get because we forget
How it feels to be alone here
You thought that I needed you
But you fucked that one up too
If you wanted to do some damage
You should have got here sooner

Cut the feelings into fine lines
Each row another land mine
With a razorblade you can’t escape
When it hits you like a warm night
And all the evil things you told me
When the nights got fucking lonely
From miles away we cursed our fate
As our screams shook the phone line

You said you're sorry for how you treated me
But that you were glad to leave me
Cause you’re drinking big
And popping pills and loving on the run
And if you weren’t really in this,
You prick, that makes one of us.
So fuck you for pretending
And me for believing it.

You pulled a knife on your new girlfriend
Yea, I hear you’ve completely lost it
Rage and pain and getting laid
Well I’m glad I’m not a part of it
And I need something more to hold me
Than these memories exploding
You’re a bee hive
That ate me alive
Before your venom stung me

I always told the truth
And truth is that I hate you
It’s everything you never wanted
But I don’t care what it’s like to be in your shoes
I’d rather not think about your bad news
Loving games that always beat you
What it means to be a fuck up
And playing girls that get fed up and leave you.

another reason to hate math

A girl and boy that I once knew
Knew that one and one made two
And that two sometimes made one too.

Now the boy who used to love.
His eyes got dead
Charm used up
Always planning what the next page said
Next line in
Next lie wins.
Decided to hold his head so high
He found other arms to squeeze him tight
Left that girl in the ring
Partway through the fight
His face shining with delight
He dropped the bomb
And she was gone.
What had he done?
Don’t say goodbye
Don’t say goodbye
Don’t say anything.

There’s a girl whose smile breaks
On coldest nights she spends awake
Snow outside
Makes her shake
An indentation on the other side
Left a space in bed for the wind to hide
And thoughts in her head to be denied
Pale lips - distant fingertips.
Weak solace in her mind
Seeking answers from red wine
And memories from another life.
Still convinced that she was right.
Found her answer at the end of a knife.
Because she was done.
Forget it.
Forget it.
Don’t think anything.

Part of a girl and boy I once was
Upon a time
Before the dust
Got into the cracks
Pushed things apart too much to get it back.
Now there is nothing but empty arms
Empty lives
Empty songs.
Cliché hearts
The same two that were each one apart
Then one together
Found upon walking away from all that
They had become fractions.
Didn’t get it all back
Each came away with
Less than what they started
When they figured out the math.